NoNo is done. And I learned a lot. Here are a few lessons:
1 - I vastly overestimated my word count to be achieved. But I also vastly overshot my word count goals with all of the non-word-making parts of the job that I also do.
2 - I wasn't good at tracking my words. I'd often write for several days and not record. Or, after a long stretch, I'd get up exhausted and just not do the one more step of coming onto SIA to track my efforts. It became an extra thing on my list. However, when I DID record my words, it was always informative in many ways.
3 - I work fast. Like, really, really fast. I've always known this about me. I've been at over a million words since 2016 and will more than double that this year. It's a win. I don't say it as a brag, but as confidence in one of my strengths. Believe me, I also have weaknesses. But creating fast, quality, story progressing words is not one of them. I know I had at least 8 days in November when I just plain didn't track my words, one of which was a 6 hour flying stretch, and I still ended up at 107,015 as a recorded total.
4 - So this becomes a highlight to one of my greatest weaknesses; I'm doing TOO MUCH. Period. There was zero way I was going to get through all of the work on my plate, even at my ridiculous writing pace. I had my "other general projects" category and I went over my estimated word count on it even without all of the tracking. I didn't realize just how much work I had in this "other general projects" category but I now know that answer: TOO MUCH. It isn't a case of capacity planning, but just capacity. I was in my end of year review period, so seeing the words tracked forced me to stick to my "NOs" for the things I'm dropping next year. I'll end up over 2 million words this year, just shy of 2.5. My library doesn't show it. I'm too scattered. Too many projects for too many people. Too many yeses that neither grow me as an author nor grow my bottom line.
5 - I really do love the words. I always have. It's almost painful to realize how much of the other "stuff" I've allowed to overshadow that as I work my business model and career.
6 - AI is frustrating. I am pragmatic about it. (Use the tools only as tools but keep creating my art in the human way. Not searching for a debate here. This is the place I've landed ethically.) But a piece of me knows how prevalent it is and it continues to grow. I worry about the quantity over quality that is bleeding into our industry. Am I only adding to the noise? Sometimes it makes me want to simply write for the sake of writing . . .
7 . . . but writing, as my friend Chris says, is only complete when read (or performed or watched in some cases). It takes the consumer to complete its journey. So the business--the part I can never seem to balance or keep from taking over--is necessary. My stories need to complete their journeys.
8 - Community matters. More than the words.
9 - I still want to finish the stories. They beg it of me and their little sisters and cousins follow on their coattails asking the same. I hate leaving them unattended . . . incomplete.
10 - But next year will look different. It must. Or I won't be here. I've been 30 years in this industry (only full-time for 11 of those years). And--in all the ways--I'm tired.
